The older I get, the more aware I am that life on this planet is slipping by more rapidly with each day that passes. I’ve at least learned to appreciate my time here and to savor it, however. Assuming I’ll live to be 100, (chuckle) half my life is over.
During this past year, I found myself worrying….A LOT….. about aging. I’ve gone back and forth between desperate angst and quiet acceptance. I recently decided that being ok with it has to be a conscious choice rather than an out of control emotional roller coaster. I need to cease being shocked back into reality each time I pass a mirror and keep in mind that I will see what is, and not what I wish it were. I’m 52, not 25 and that’s that. My waistline will never go back to what it was when I was in my 20’s. My hair will continue to get thinner, and growing it long again in an attempt to recapture some of my youth, will only look ridiculous. I don’t want to be like my crazy aunt who thought she was 20 until the day she died. Bless her heart, but I’d rather not be remembered as a “colorful character”. After all, I do have my dignity to think about.
So, this year I will work to be the best me I can be and stop worrying about how many gray hairs I have on my head. As a matter of fact, I will no longer dye my hair……they tell me that gray is the new blonde! Imagine that. Make-up will be kept to a minimum, because I think it actually makes you older in a way. Nothing can take the place of good skin care at my age.
I’ve also got a lot of work ahead of me yet with this house and I want to concentrate on getting that done. I especially want to get my craft room done so I can start creating again. I am yearning to make some new things. It’s a great tension tamer for me.
My word for 2013 is “SAVE”. That is really my main goal for this year. I pretty much gutted my savings account when I bought this house last year, so I really want to get that built back up. I’ve got a plan and new budget that I’m really excited about and that I think is totally do-able.
What are your goals for the new year?